Freedom

TODAY marks a magnificent day. I HAVE A CAR TO DRIVE, WHEREVER I WANT. WHEN I WANT. FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE NOVEMBER 5!

It's been excruciatingly hard. Depressing. Daunting that I could not get out of this place and go very far. I tried one day but the 20 degree weather and lack of really warm coat had me coming home.  THEN my coat finally arrived in the mail.  And BAM a foot of snow came, forcing me to stay put when the hills became to slick to risk walking. So no Christmas shopping except on two occasions over a couple of weekends, where I found myself saddened when I couldn't find anything in the brief time we had shopping.

SO TODAY IS A MY FIRST TASTE OF FREEDOM!!!!

Of course it's not going for shopping. I'm loading up my dog Sushi and taking her to a vet's office. She has an ear infection.  Again.  And her eyes are still bothering her.  And they have been bothering her since we arrived, Nov 13. All this time of not being able to get out and then watching her rub or "noodle" as Chris and I call it, has driven me crazy with guilt. Then, she started throwing up again. And then not eating very much, if at all (well, chicken and cheese treats always perk her up, but I worry she'll upchuck them).  So I woke up today with a start, realizing that her ear is probably causing her enough pain and the nausea ... and I'm using my one day of freedom with a car to do what?  BE A GOOD MOM to my dog.